Episode Transcript
[00:00:00] Hello, welcome to Brain Files.
[00:00:04] This is probably now, now my sixth take of this. I have tried to record a first episode so many times and I probably have around three hours of recordings, but I didn't like any of them. There was the one hour long one where I was talking very slow and very light the entire time and I don't think I would even listen to it.
[00:00:38] It just, it didn't really get into much of what I think an introductory episode for Brainpow should be like. And I don't even know what that should be like. But I don't have any agenda today. I just was going over the episode. I was about to really submit it and go into the, the COVID photo and put everything all together. But I just, I wanted to start it fresh in something new, especially coming back from college and being back in my room for winter break.
[00:01:23] I think it is best right now to record how I am right now.
[00:01:31] And I remember asking a few questions originally two months ago about some topics on what to talk about for brainphiles and I got some comments about talking about fashion and crafting and I forget there, there was some advice for it as well, but I don't specifically remember what it was about.
[00:01:59] I didn't save them. They go away after 24 hours thanks to Instagram. But, but, but, but I, I think I should just dive into what I've been working on currently and recently and maybe that can give some insight into who I am and what I am like. Guess a day to day.
[00:02:30] Well, the past, the past month I have been working on having my own business.
[00:02:39] Now this is a, this is a thought I've had in mind for a long time.
[00:02:47] Specifically this whole year and last year I've thought about it because I've always loved clothes and fashion and I really like to put my odd take onto it.
[00:03:06] And I even started being in this costume design class where you learn how to machine sew because for years I've been hand sewing and I remember when I first.
[00:03:22] Actually, I don't remember exactly when I first started hand sewing, but up until now I have learned a lot and I've thought about machine sewing and kind of scared of machine sewing because it's similar to me in learning how to drive a car and it's actually very similar. It is weirdly similar to learning how to drive a car in its own way.
[00:03:58] But hand sewing, I've. I've made gloves, I've made shoes, I've made. I've attempted to make many projects and I got a lot of burnout from them, from going on days of sewing them and then not really planning the projects and kind of giving up after a few days. And the final product isn't even really a final product. It is a rough draft of a product.
[00:04:37] But that was in the past where I didn't really fully know how to hand sew.
[00:04:47] And I was basing it off of my middle school home and careers class, hand sewing.
[00:04:56] And the topic was not even extensively covered, but it was maybe a few days that we were hand sewing and really just remember learning how to put the, the thread through the needle and tying a knot and sewing on a button and that's really about it.
[00:05:24] But I took that memory and that knowledge into just starting sewing and maybe this episode that, how I just said that was very weird episode.
[00:05:39] Maybe this episode should be about sewing.
[00:05:43] I don't know. There's so many things to talk about about me that I don't know where to start for a first episode.
[00:05:52] But hand sewing itself, learning how to sew, sewing in general, making, just making.
[00:06:05] Maybe this should be about just making and creating and wanting to create, not knowing what to create, being inspired by other people creating their own clothes, their own accessories, their own products, and wanting to buy them, wanting to make them, wanting to have them, wanting to have what other people have, wanting to make your own stuff.
[00:06:40] And there is, there's a lot of burnout that I go through when thinking of ideas of what to make and leading up to actually making them.
[00:06:58] I have not made everything that I have ideas for, but it's a slow process that when I am such a.
[00:07:12] I'm a slow paced person, but a fast and working thinker.
[00:07:19] So I have a bunch of ideas on things to sew and create and I get kind of just stirred away from it or just deterred from it, from other things in life.
[00:07:41] But I have really, really noticed over the past few years that it is a huge problem with technology, but not really the problem with technology, but the problem with the fixation on it and how much time is really devoted to it and how it really grabs you in.
[00:08:12] So I, I guess that the first time I ever really got inspired by style and aesthetics and art was probably through Tumblr.
[00:08:37] And this was around the time I was maybe 11 or 12 around there.
[00:08:47] And I would always see these photos of people who look so cool. They have just really cool hair and these, the style that they wear.
[00:09:02] I was always very inspired by it and I really wanted these different styles, but I didn't. I was very I didn't feel like I was that worthy of liking those things because I didn't look that way and I didn't have a room or world around me such as, Like, I didn't have the style, I didn't have the things in my room to encompass those things. I didn't have.
[00:09:42] I didn't even, like, get into crafts by that time.
[00:09:46] But I've always been.
[00:09:50] I've always wanted to create and I love. I've always loved drawing and painting and collaging.
[00:10:01] Heavy on the collaging.
[00:10:04] I remember in a.
[00:10:07] In high school.
[00:10:09] I think it was high school. Yeah, in ninth grade, that's when we got more into collaging. But, oh, yeah, in middle school we also had art.
[00:10:21] And I mean, everyone like, likes art class. I would think most people like art class, but I really, really held it strongly to me and I wanted to just learn more and more and more techniques.
[00:10:38] But at the same time, I would see other people's artwork and still feel like I wasn't some artist.
[00:10:53] Never thought I was some artist or never thought that I could create what they did in a great sense and they have a whole portfolio and go to art school.
[00:11:13] But I didn't think of any art school or putting together a portfolio.
[00:11:22] My family, my friends would tell me that they liked, like, they thought my art was amazing and I should go to art school, but I just didn't. I'd never.
[00:11:37] I didn't really believe it. I just liked making art.
[00:11:42] And that was something that I kind of. I still hold today.
[00:11:50] But there's also other outside factors that make me not really want to go to art school because I'm enjoying what I'm doing now and I never put together a portfolio.
[00:12:09] I thought about going to fashion school originally. When I was in high school, I thought about it, but I didn't have anything that I made.
[00:12:22] I didn't have any drawings and sketches of outfits and design ideas or any eccentric, like, works that I could put into a portfolio.
[00:12:37] But I always had ideas.
[00:12:40] I had these ideas and inspirations, but I never put them onto paper or I never put them into a design that would actually be a piece to present.
[00:12:58] And I eventually went to college for zoology because I love animals and I originally wanted to study them and I wanted to just.
[00:13:21] I wanted to observe animals for hours and hours a day and see what I can do to help with conservation efforts, whether it's aquatic animals or land animals, wildlife.
[00:13:42] And then I remember being in my chemistry lab class.
[00:13:51] I. I've also, like, stated this to other people before. But it was definitely the start of where I realized that I have taken it so far in my life of not going towards making art where I didn't know that it meant that much to me.
[00:14:18] I didn't know that until I just haven't made art in so long and I, I was stringing just almost too far away from it where I would get myself into something I just did not want to be a part of.
[00:14:48] And I just remember everyone in my lab class was doing their experiments and this was a two hour class, like a two, three hour lab class.
[00:15:05] And just.
[00:15:07] I thought that I was gonna be learning about animals and going to like parks and conservations and learning the biology and anatomy of them and their environment and even like a part of archaeology in a way.
[00:15:33] But that was not it. Especially freshman year. You get a lot into the chemistry, math, gen ed, history.
[00:15:45] I loved biology. That's where we actually got to learn about animals. But in chemistry you were not, you were not.
[00:15:58] But everyone was just doing their experiments. And it's that same feeling where I have just felt it before again and again where everyone just seems that they are happy and knowing what they are doing.
[00:16:18] But I am not there.
[00:16:22] I'm not actually enjoying this major, this core class that goes into zoology that I need and not even being inspired by it, that was a big thing because I, I feel inspiration from, you know, chemistry itself and the core of it. It's very interesting. But I, I felt like a huge part was missing where I wasn't creating and I wasn't. I felt like I was really stuck of making what I wanted to even if I didn't have a fully clear concept of it yet.
[00:17:15] And I wasn't even sewing or.
[00:17:21] But I, I left the class like in the first 15 minutes and I dropped my major and then I switched over to art illustration.
[00:17:41] I don't think I should get to all of it and because I've been art illustration and now I'm a psychology major and it's, it's a bit confusing but I'm, I'm getting a lot closer of a grasp of it than I did three, four years ago. And that's what really matters to me.
[00:18:15] But with the technology I, I've always. Yeah, like now I use Pinterest a lot and I can really go for like hours of just finding photos and adding them to boards and categorizing them into different things that I like where it's one board is like different, like one style and then the other boards are just different styles of inspiration. And then I would really just for a long time, leave it there.
[00:19:02] Leave it just as is, because I would just make excuses of, oh, I don't have the money to get this, or it would be so anxiety inducing to think of how much there is potentially left for me to do, like, change my hair and get this style and these shoes and all this different stuff that just wasn't needed.
[00:19:37] And from that, I just started making my own stuff.
[00:19:47] And a lot of people, I think, really should start making their own stuff.
[00:19:53] It helps you a lot with growing and knowing yourself more. I believe I started.
[00:20:03] Started collaging and drawing and making my own clothes.
[00:20:13] And when I see. When I go back to these boards and photos of things that I like, clothes that I really liked and was inspired by, it's not really like, oh, I can make that, but it's more of a.
[00:20:32] I can reference off of that and kind of put pieces together to replicate that. And then in the beginning to middle of it, I change it around to how I like because I find other fabric or other clothes that I have, and I piece those together and I make my own piece.
[00:20:57] And now knowing from costume design how to machine sew, it's just really helpful.
[00:21:04] But over consumption in real life and online is insane for your brain. You go insane. You want to have so much that might not like. It can make you happy for a small amount of time, really happy. Like, you get that package or you go to the store or you go thrifting and you find these.
[00:21:38] These items that you really love in the moment and you wear them or. And then eventually you just don't really care for them as much anymore.
[00:21:54] And I. That's just really for me.
[00:21:59] But I. I realized why that is, and I just didn't feel like it was fully what I enjoyed and fully me, because, I don't know, it takes a long time for people to even know who they are.
[00:22:16] It's a learning process.
[00:22:19] And art has teached me so much more to who I am and what I truly enjoy with.
[00:22:34] With collaging, I would say that if you are in a similar headspace where you don't feel like you know what you were doing and you don't fully know yourself, but you want to make things and you want to create things, and you have a set idea in mind where you think, oh, yeah, like this. This. This dress would look so cool. Like, this shirt would look really cool, or if you see someone else's style or like other designers, like, I would still and even before, look at designer pieces and think, oh, you know, like, that's really cool. But I might. I would have kind of changed that. That would do. Like, that would be a really cool statement piece to add in there, or even, like a color I would change or some fabric I would change or add on.
[00:23:32] And look at videos online of people making these tutorials of, you know, how they made this piece, or just people drawing and showing their works of art on social media. People showing their works of art.
[00:23:49] And that was my time. Like, that was how I consumed my time a lot. Just consuming and consuming and wanting to become close to what I am inspired by, but not actually inspiring myself.
[00:24:14] And I think it's very essential for you to inspire yourself.
[00:24:21] And by doing that, start up a hobby, really start up a hobby that you fully can be yourself and you are truly enjoying that space.
[00:24:42] Like, you were fixated on it even for hours, and you want to just. Or even. Just an hour, even 30 minutes, and you just want to get more into it and you have more ideas, and you know that you can not even make it perfectly, but you can try until you get there or get close to it.
[00:25:08] Like, when I first started, when I made my first gloves, I was literally referencing off of a photo that I saw. And I just. I got so into my head about how to sew gloves and how exactly to do it and what is the correct way and how do I make it look like that and how to piece it together and how to correctly sew it and just like, have fun and make mistakes with you creating stuff.
[00:25:44] Like, just. Even if you make something and it just turns out so, so bad, and you just, you know, you don't even have to add to it. Just like, store it away, store it away for a bit. Don't, like, hoard everything. Like, I.
[00:26:10] I definitely hoard a lot of fabric, but I use it. I use it. Eventually I have.
[00:26:18] I. What was it yesterday? I've had these fabrics in my room, these scrap fabrics from old projects for like two years, and I just never use them.
[00:26:34] But I know myself and how in a random occurrence, I'll spark creativity and want to make something, and that fabric will just help me during those times and it'll be useful.
[00:26:51] And it was like yesterday I made this dress out of a shirt. Like, I also think that many people have a problem of having a lot of clothes that they just do not want anymore or get too big, get too small.
[00:27:16] The style is, you know, it doesn't fit you in a flattering way.
[00:27:23] And you can change that. You can make it how you want.
[00:27:28] Like, if you have a shirt that you're referencing off of that actually does fit you in the right way, just take that shirt and take the shirt that's too big, too small and flattering, and reference off of that and just start sewing, start sewing, start drawing.
[00:27:56] Anything that can keep your mind alive and just honestly, off of the phones and the computer where you can just be yourself in that moment and just play is what we were really meant to do is to just play, fool around and create our own stuff, because our hands.
[00:28:32] I'm doing this like, I'm putting out my hands while holding my lovely plush Mortimer.
[00:28:39] Your hands are so, so important, and you really just. You can use those to such amazing use. Other than scrolling on a phone, typing on a computer, and wearing down your eyes and your brain, keeping that thought that you were not.
[00:29:11] You are not. Like, you don't know enough to do this idea that you have to make this thing that you want to make.
[00:29:23] I am. A few months ago, I started this little, like, challenge for myself to draw something every day from memory.
[00:29:41] I do not like my phone, do not like the technology.
[00:29:46] It really gets to me. And I feel like I have done nothing after the day, just being on my phone, most of it. And I've just given up so much time to that instead of just having my playtime.
[00:30:04] So the challenge that I did for myself, yeah. Was draw something every day from memory.
[00:30:12] And you.
[00:30:16] You really just don't know until you do it.
[00:30:21] But I just. At the time, I did not draw for such a long time, and I still feel like I don't know what my style is for drawing and what to draw, but you figure that out by doing it over and over and over again until it kind of just comes naturally.
[00:30:46] And I just started drawing things from memory of what is in my kitchen, what is in my bathroom that I see every day. When I would go out, I would bring my sketchbook on, like, the bus, and I would start drawing the people in front of me and the, like, in the road, I would start drawing the car. So, like, getting to a lift, I would start trying to remember how the car looked when I first saw it before I went into the car and trying to sketch that down.
[00:31:23] Or I would also.
[00:31:26] I would sit in front of my. My house, and for hours I would just draw the trees and the. Oh, yeah. I was, like, drawing this leaf, these leaves that I thought were really interesting and not in a way where I need to get it perfect, but in a way where, like, it's okay if it doesn't look perfect. You were just trying to have fun with it and see where it gets you and just mess around.
[00:32:03] Because there's a lot of stress to perform well for other people if they might see those, like, drawings or any work of art that you do and having their comments on it, it is stressful. It's stressful and you feel like you don't even want to start because once you even make one piece and it's horrible, you feel like that is what dictates who you are.
[00:32:47] But it's not.
[00:32:50] It is not.
[00:32:52] I.
[00:32:53] I've drawn just random faces and random swirls. I recommend drawing with your eyes closed because I would just get so annoyed and that those thoughts going on in my head again, and I'm like, you know what? I'm just gonna draw with my eyes closed, see what comes out of it. And, you know, it was a bunch of scratches and swirls and things that did not really look like anything. But I also like to make characters out of things that don't look like anything and turn them into things that I see from it.
[00:33:30] Even wherever I go, from shadows or scratched old stickers or.
[00:33:38] I mean, I just. I see faces, I see animals in things that are not.
[00:33:44] And I like to put that into my drawing where sometimes if I'm really just in an annoyed state, I'll just scribble and scribble and then see what they kind of look like and piece them together.
[00:34:01] And you can find a style more that way. But forget about having a specific style.
[00:34:11] Forget about having a specific aesthetic, being in a category, being a certain person, being a certain artist, because you are not anything that is specifically said or stated to be that is from online.
[00:34:33] You just have to play again and have fun and just make horrible art.
[00:34:43] Just make horrible art. Until you really make art that you enjoy.
[00:34:53] I don't really know what else to, like, get into. I've. I say a lot of stuff, but very little because I'm just. I'm looking down at the ground with my collage, my sketchbook and my buttons and my newspaper and all my letters cut out.
[00:35:15] I collage stuff from, like, old brand boxes and newspapers and I cut out the letters and the photos and I stick them into my sketchbook and I make them something of it. I really like barcodes.
[00:35:33] I've been really liking barcodes. I do not like QR codes. I don't just do not like them, but I like barcodes.
[00:35:43] And I Put them like all on one sheet of paper around this picture of a dollhouse that I cut out. Because I really like dollhouses.
[00:35:54] That's another thing with cardboard and repurposing stuff.
[00:35:59] If you have any cardboard, newspaper paper, plastic, any stuff that you're about to like throw out that can be useful for a project, just mess around with it.
[00:36:15] Because I kept seeing these paper mache dollhouses online and I really, really wanted to make one. There are ones out of milk cartons and bottles and just straight up starting from scratch too. Just like cardboard boxes starting from that and you just cut them out. Paper mache it, maybe paint it if you like, put in lights if you like. It's like those miniature houses where they have like a whole scenery and little flickery lights. And I just think that they're so beautiful.
[00:37:00] And I just love, I love things that are circus oriented and miniature stuff. I love miniature foods, I love miniature cities, miniature dollhouses, dolls.
[00:37:15] I love them all. And I wanted to make them. So I made my own little circus tent out of.
[00:37:26] What was it? It was like this light cardboard, some brown like natural paper newspaper. And then I painted that and I molded it a bit with tin foil and cut it out with.
[00:37:46] Well, I molded it a lot with just mod podge to seal it together.
[00:37:55] And then on the inside I put like a paper towel roll on the inside too.
[00:38:01] Make the like stand post.
[00:38:04] And then I also work a lot with polymer clay. I am so I'm a little upset for not bringing my polymer clay from college because I worry about taking too much space into my suitcase.
[00:38:21] And then I don't bring the like my art stuff, but I bring my clothes. And it. I'm really, I'm trying to work on that because I think, oh, but I'll need this. And oh, but like I have been really liking these outfits the past few days. And then I don't bring like my polymer clay and my.
[00:38:41] What was the other thing? I didn't bring, I didn't bring like some fabrics and there was some other thing, but I bought my sewing machine, but I wasn't gonna use it. The first few weeks here I just didn't use it. But now I've been using it and I'm really glad that I brought it. My sewing machine kind of hates me. It.
[00:39:03] So you're not hearing this sewing machine. You're fine, you're good. She's bedazzled. She's amazing.
[00:39:11] But the Singer sewing machines, my Singer sewing machine, it just, it has its, has its battles. I Need to do surgery on her every now and then because she just, like, knots up underneath all the mechanics. And I have to go in there and put surgery on her and take all of, like, the parts out and then put it all back together again because thread got stuck.
[00:39:43] But also brought my hand sewing kit, so I keep both handy.
[00:39:49] And I brought my sketchbook, and I've been gluing in a lot of stuff. Been gluing in the barcodes, been gluing in photos I don't have. I only have my dad's printer here, so I'm able to print out not that many photos because I don't want to waste all of his color ink. But I did print out as much as I could.
[00:40:13] Oh, yeah, what was it, two, three days ago? I think two days ago I made stickers. Learned how to make stickers. I've heard of people making stickers before, but I didn't try it out for myself.
[00:40:27] But you just take some parchment paper, some regular printer paper. I used newspaper. I like the newspaper more. It's easier to cut.
[00:40:39] And then just the printer paper of photos printed out.
[00:40:45] And you basically just cut those photos out and with like, packing tape, put them on the parchment paper, put them over the photos, and you cut them out.
[00:40:59] And it's amazing because the tape doesn't stick that well to the parchment paper. So you can just peel it off in the back. There are videos of it online that go easily into it, but I did basically describe it, and they've been really fun. I've also been loving making these pins out of felt recently.
[00:41:25] And I've spent, like, hours on these, but I don't even tell. I can't even tell when the time goes by that much.
[00:41:34] Like, I can and I can't. I know that time is passing by a lot and that I've been working on it for a long time, but not actually how many hours are passing by, but they do take. They haven't taken a while because I have been very, like, diligent with it.
[00:41:54] I've been referencing off of drawings and photos that have just, like, clear stencils and then putting those onto felt. Because I really have been loving felt like crafting from, like, inspiration online.
[00:42:16] So instead of seeing inspiration of photos and thinking, oh, like, where can I get that? Where can I buy that?
[00:42:26] I believe in making stuff myself if I can.
[00:42:31] And for everything. It has, like, it has been pretty simple just by getting the supplies.
[00:42:39] And it was like, oh, you know, I don't have a lot of money. Well, if you're able to purchase an item that, you know, looks what you want and it's like $30, but the actual products to get it are $30, you have enough product for like 20 of those.
[00:43:11] So it's a lot better to just get these supplies and do it yourself and learn how and make something of your own that's unique rather than just buy it from, I don't know, Amazon or Etsy or Depop or Poshmark. You know, those places are good for other specific things like their shoes or jackets.
[00:43:46] When it comes to personalizing your own stuff and your own clothes, you can have so much fun with it. Like, I have. I have a lot of shirts where I like the graphic, but I don't like how it fits on me.
[00:44:02] So I just cut out those graphics and then I put them onto skirts, put them onto shirts, jackets, bags. You can have so much fun with it. It is so much fun. I also got a hot glue gun, so I've been using that to piece together some of the felt and also to put.
[00:44:23] What are they, like broche pins on the back of them when I'm done with them. And then I've been wanting to put those onto bags and other clothes.
[00:44:37] But I've just come a long way in the past two years with making stuff, and I want to just encourage making your own art.
[00:44:50] And if you think, like, even if you see videos of people showing their art, I'll. You'll still kind of have that process of like, oh, yeah, you know, it's really cool. And it's great that they have their own style and that they did that. But you can do that too. You don't have to.
[00:45:17] Like, you can be inspired by other people, but if you had that same urge to do it yourself, then start doing yourself, even if it looks bad.
[00:45:30] Truly, I have.
[00:45:35] I've started from, like, putting earrings onto shoes and gluing lace onto shoes and putting like toy doll heads onto scarfs and cutting out, like, hats and making them into bags just by playing around.
[00:46:01] Because it's. It's really a fun. It's really a fun adventure.
[00:46:07] It's truly a fun adventure. And I'm trying to get the most off of, like, the online, but I am currently working on my brands and by doing that, I gotta go step by step.
[00:46:24] And right now kinda just. I've been at. Well, I'm at the point right now to find out which font to use.
[00:46:34] Sounds simple. It's not simple. It is not. I was looking at fonts for, like, an hour yesterday. And after half an hour, the words don't look like English words anymore.
[00:46:48] And I truly understand why non English speakers are so confused.
[00:46:55] Because it just, it looks, it looks so weird. The words look so weird. They don't make any sense. Like, why is sugar spelled like that? I don't know.
[00:47:09] But everyone does their art differently.
[00:47:15] Everyone goes at a different pace.
[00:47:18] And it doesn't feel good to be at a slow pace.
[00:47:22] But at a slow pace where for me, I go at a slow pace, I take my time.
[00:47:32] If I am first, like starting up an idea and I don't know how to go about it, then it takes you in into a path that is faster and it becomes easier.
[00:47:44] And you learn from those mistakes and those, like, upsetting projects that you didn't like.
[00:47:57] Like, if I didn't have all these projects that I messed with and then just started from, like, trying to be perfect, I would have not learned how to do so much.
[00:48:13] I would have not learned how to take a very easy way to tie a knot at the end of a thread.
[00:48:25] And that was just extremely mind blowing for me.
[00:48:32] Do I have to give a description now? Okay, so if any of you sew, you take like, once you have the loop through the thread, you take the loose part of the thread at the very end, take the needle, and with like your left hand, you're holding the thread, the two parts of thread on the right side, you're holding the needle.
[00:48:56] And with your right hand, move that needle and just put it in between your left hand where it's holding with your index finger and your thumb with the other threads. So now it's just holding the, the loop part of the needle and the thread part together.
[00:49:17] And then with the back of that, like the back portion where it's the actual thread, not the thread coming out of the needle, there's like two rows, the back row. Then over the needle portion, you wrap it like two, three times, two, four times. I usually do like two, three.
[00:49:38] And then you have to just, while holding the needle part in your right hand, on the left, just like slide it all the way down, and then it just makes a knot.
[00:49:51] It has been, it has been life altering for me.
[00:49:59] So many things. Polymer clay. I don't know how long I've been talking.
[00:50:04] This was completely not planned that I'd be talking this new podcast, completely unplanned. I was just like, I just don't like this episode. I. I'm just gonna start a new one right now. So I had nothing planned but polymer Clay is so much fun. I want to get more into clay. I really want to make these monster, like, alien figures. I already made one. And with the.
[00:50:33] The circus tent and the guy I'm about to talk about is actually going to be the COVID photo for this entire podcast. Brain Files.
[00:50:44] Going to be the whole cover photo with. With a little bit of jazz on the outside of it, a little bit of blitz and layer and jazzy parts around it, which I thought were really fun. I'm looking at my peanut butter and jelly socks right now. I love my peanut butter and jelly socks. Anyways.
[00:51:05] Polymer clay. I've been really liking making realistic desserts, realistic sweets and foods.
[00:51:13] And that's what I'm working on for my brand for part of it, because I really just want to make more of them and for an actual profit eventually.
[00:51:29] And you gotta have a lot of patience.
[00:51:34] I love taking my time, as I said before. So I'll spend an entire day just on one, like, dessert ring that looks like a cake or a cookie.
[00:51:47] And I really have fun with it. I really, really enjoy it.
[00:51:52] Like, once you guys find something that you really enjoy and you'll just go hours or days into a project, it'll just, like, time will just slip away and you'll just like, be so into it. And that's how you'll build off of knowing what else you like and more about yourself.
[00:52:18] And I have to go to the bathroom so badly right now. I'm not going to yet, though. Not going to until I finish this podcast.
[00:52:31] I have been decorating my room a little bit more. I put this, like, this cat calendar. I swear, I thought that it was a 2025 cat calendar. I got it last year and I thought, like, it said, like, 2024 to 2025.
[00:52:48] Now, yes, that is a 2024 calendar.
[00:52:52] But at the time I saw cats on the calendar, saw, you know, 2024, 2025, and it was like, at the dollar store checkout, and I just grabbed it and I'm like, oh, my gosh, oh, my gosh, oh my gosh. Like, I need this.
[00:53:10] And I already had a cat calendar, but this was like a really, really cute one, and I wanted it again. And I thought, you know, yeah, like, it'll be for 2025. No, it's like, until 2025. So with the photos of the cats, I just put them all over my room. And I want to do that more with these calendars. I think I just might, like, if I go to the dollar store again, forever, find myself there. Again, I'll get one of those calendars again, start putting them up because they're really good posters.
[00:53:45] They really are.
[00:53:48] You guys can really get out of paying so much out of things that are just not what they are advertised as. But you can make them that, like, what else? What can I use as reference?
[00:54:04] I don't know. I put like paper plates on my wall, put this yo gabba gabba plate on my wall because I found it at this discount party store.
[00:54:16] Do plates. Are plates advertised as going on walls? No, but do you have free will? You most definitely do.
[00:54:27] And I have seen plushies been put on walls. I really want to do that. I've also been wanting to declutter a lot because I've been noticing how much clutter there is and there's.
[00:54:45] It's a lot from like the past years of getting stuff to try and figure out what style is fit for me. But I don't have a set style. It always changes.
[00:55:02] But I know a comfortable style for me.
[00:55:07] And many of those clothes that were going off of other people's styles that I really liked, it wasn't me, but I really like them. And I had to realize that I can really like other people's styles and want to kind of like try that and dress up as that.
[00:55:32] But I also kind of just want to have a more simple day to day style where I just kind of go off of the clothes I already have and make my own stuff and to not need to just get more and more and more.
[00:55:54] It's a habit that is very much, very much advertised by social media.
[00:56:02] That's what happens when you go on your phone for too long.
[00:56:05] So work in progress. I have gone weeks without going like an hour more on my phone. And those have been the best times because if I didn't have like any messages or anything, my. My anxiety is just away. Like it's just gone.
[00:56:29] And I recently finally got a cassette player.
[00:56:33] Finally got a cassette player because I have cassettes that I've been wanting to play for a long time since I got them. But I never had a player for it. And I went to a antique store, went to vintage stores, I went to thrift stores. I could not find one. And even online they looked like just junky pieces of plastic boxes.
[00:56:55] But no, I wanted a Walkman that clips to you, clips to your jeans, whatever. It has a clip in the back of it. It's compact, small, you can carry it around.
[00:57:08] I used to bring my CD player around with me and it would just take up more space than I wanted it to. And it can't really go on its side because the CD just. It doesn't hold together that well. So you gotta, like, hold it flat almost.
[00:57:32] And I really wanted cassette player. I just wanted something that is easy to hold with me.
[00:57:41] And I also watched.
[00:57:46] God, I forget the movie, but it's a. It's a recent movie, like from last year of this guy in Japan who loves cassettes and has a car where he has a cassette player. And I really love a car like that and how his life is just. It's very simple, very minimal, just with books and cassettes. And I would like to get there slowly while also just making my own stuff and not needing to consume anymore.
[00:58:27] But I finally got a Walkman with a clip that clips to you and it is insanely beautiful.
[00:58:43] I would like to say the older headphones, they look like. They look, you know, lighter, smaller, like they wouldn't perform as well. They perform a million times better than any $200 headphones. Now. I don't care if it has like the bass. The.
[00:59:01] I don't know what these new advancements are. They're like. It's like huge and noise canceling.
[00:59:08] These are a lot better.
[00:59:12] A lot better.
[00:59:15] And not even close to that price.
[00:59:18] It was very. It was hard to find this, but someone was selling. Selling it on ebay for a very good price for what it is, like unopened in the packaging.
[00:59:32] Straight from.
[00:59:34] What year was it?
[00:59:36] I'm not sure, maybe 89, 84.
[00:59:43] Not fully sure.
[00:59:46] But oh, my God, it is so, so, so, so good.
[00:59:53] And now I can carry it around with me.
[00:59:59] I don't really know what else to talk about.
[01:00:02] This first episode is certainly, certainly a brain file more that I got out of than the last episode. And that's showing a lot because I rambled a lot, but said not much of a lot here.
[01:00:21] But I hope overall that if you are listening, still listening, or even skip to the very end of this, like, thank you.
[01:00:34] Maybe I should end it off with saying, like, one last thing if I.
[01:00:41] I don't know, because once I go into something, I really, really ramble about it.
[01:00:47] Oh, another. Another piece of advice. Don't be scared to use your stickers.
[01:00:54] If you guys, like, use stickers, you. You can use your stickers. You don't gotta, like, hold them dear to you. And that's why I've been really loving these. My one really great friend, Ella, we've become pen pals. And I sent her a letter. She sent one back.
[01:01:22] Well, with a, in a package. And then I get to use my stationary of stickers and paper and all my little toys that I love. But I know that others would just cherish more having it for the very first time.
[01:01:43] And the art of writing letters needs to, it needs to be more acknowledged again because it certainly I can have another whole episode about letters and letter writing, but there is something very unique and specific about writing a letter and getting a letter that is, it's nothing like a, any text message or DM or email and you don't even like, yeah, you have to wait like a few days. But it is so, so great when you can finally just have it in your hands and seeing someone else's handwriting and what they have there, like from their own that they're able to give to you and hand to you. Like there's something so special about that between people.
[01:02:55] And my advice to end this episode off is to write a letter to someone that you love.
[01:03:04] Write a letter to a friend that you haven't talked to in a long time, or a family member or someone that you have a question for, or someone that you know you have something of theirs and that you should maybe give back. Maybe like send them a letter or a package and give it to them and write a little letter with it.
[01:03:27] Just, it really means a lot to that other person and a lot more than a message, I would feel.
[01:03:37] So hold that into mind.
[01:03:39] And I've been browsing some brand name ideas for myself and I'm about to go into more like half an hour scrolling of looking at fonts and possibly more collaging and working on this skirt that I was working on yesterday.
[01:04:07] So thank you so much for anyone who's been listening and yeah, I hope that you enjoyed or did not enjoy the very first Brain Fog.
[01:04:25] Bye.
